Our life with Bella

Bella has been part of our world for a little more than six weeks now. Wow! Mindblowing how quick the last six weeks has flown by even though in certain moments it felt like nightfall and the sweet silence of my baby sleeping would never come. Motherhood is amazing, but by far the most challenging thing I have ever embarked upon. The first two weeks brought me to the darkest place my mind has ever gone. I have never been so scared. I knew I loved her, but wasn't sure how to show her that and bring her comfort. We've found our way now. Both Sean and I have now figured out our own ways of communicating with her and soothing her and the darkness has faded away and every day grows brighter and brighter. Everyday I love her more and more. Sean has been amazing with her since Day 1; he seems fearless and goes with his gut and loves her strong and steady. He is amazing with her and has been fantastically helpful and supportive to me as well. He is the kind of Dad that helps and loves to do it. Bella has made me love him more and in ways I hadn't before. The second night home from the hospital, I woke up at 3:30am to feed Bella ad he got up and made us pancakes. So we had a pancake date and watched one of our DVRed shows in the dark hours of the early morning and once we had our full bellies and our show was over, we went back to sleep for an hour or so before Bella woke again. That will be a moment I remember for the rest of our lives. She is now beginning to coo and play on her own. She blesses Sean and I with great nighttime sleeping habits and is started to smile at us when we speak to her. Awwwww, I now can exhale and enjoy the sweetness of a baby's love. I still don't have a ton of free time and her daytime naps are unpredictable, but I do want to try and make it a point to document more of our journey together. And here I will be honest with everyone and share my fears and my triumphs.